Your comment about mental illness and liberals not liking it when other people are happy and having fun hit home.
Until my mid-30s I was angry at the world. I had suffered tremendous abuse growing up and thought that the majority of people do not understand what real suffering is. It was unfair that I suffered greatly and many others did not and have an easy life. I was wishing bad things would happen to others so they can have their lives destroyed.
I had been under psychiatric care for a few years when the film, "As Good as it Gets" was released. The following statement by Melvin Udall in the film summed it up perfectly.
Melvin Udall: "It's not true. Some of us have great stories, pretty stories that take place at lakes with boats and friends and noodle salad. Just no one in this car. But a lot of people, that's their story. Good times, noodle salad. What makes it so hard is not that you had it bad, but that you're that pissed that so many others had it good."
That summed up my feelings perfectly, I hated that others had it good. I watched this movie several times during the period of my life when I was having regular panic attacks. I found it to be calming. At times, I just played it for background noise to remain calm so I could function at some level rather than doing nothing and wishing I were dead.
The panic attacks started early in my recovery from my mental breakdown. My psychiatrist said the cause of the attacks is my body trying to maintain homeostasis. I had lived for so long with abusive drama that after it ended, I would do things to keep the chaos in my life because for me, that was feeling normal. The problem, that path was causing me to self-destruct.
I started my care with an anti-depressant. I felt the depression lift for a few hours after the first dose. I was reluctant to try an antidepressant due to all the bad press surrounding their use but I was at the point where I was at rock bottom and had no clue what to do. The third day, I called my psychiatrist and asked if I could increase the dose. (I was on the lowest dose). In the afternoon, I felt the depression returning and I hated that. Hye said yes and wrote a prescription. He had provided me a 10 day supply of the lowest dose from samples he had in the office. So, I took a pill in the morning and at 4 pm. It gave me the energy I needed to do things. At that point, my wife and I knew I would not be able to work for a few years. She already had a job as a high school science teacher. Our son was recently born, so I was the stay at home dad and took care of the housework. It gave me a purpose in life and allowed me to develop a routine which I needed and time to do the hard work of improving myself. My psychiatric appointments were in the afternoon, after she returned from work.
The panic attacks started shortly thereafter and I was certain it meant I could never get better. Once my psychiatrist explained the why of the panic attacks, I realized I had made the first steps to recovery and worked on ways to manage them knowing that eventually they would lessen and eventually stop. It took two years for the panic attacks to lessen to anxiety attacks and a few more years for those to mostly stop. I still have an occasional panic or anxiety attack about once a year. They are not debilitating because I have learned to not focus on them and instead go on doing what I need to do.
I eventually became a high school science teacher. It was not my first choice but it was the fastest path to employment. It is very stressful, but I still saw my psychiatrist once a month so I could learn of ways to manage it. It turned out to be a great job for me, I started having debilitating migraines few years after my breakdown. At that time there were not many meds available that effectively controlled them. When I entered the classroom, I had a responsibility that was bigger than me, so I would focus on my job and soon forget about my migraine. The meds available would reduce their intensity to a level that was tolerable. If I could get the pain to drop from 9 to 6 or 7, I was good as long as I kept busy.
Fortunately today, the underlying cause for the migraines has been determined and the two newest drugs developed using gene technology lets me live practically migraine free.
Since I started on the path of recovery over 30 years ago, I now have a positive outlook on life. I find value in being a husband, dad, and now granddad. I have been greatly helped in my recovery through Christianity. God keeps me grounded and focused on the things I need to do and the things I need to stay away from. At 64, I am still improving every day.
During my recovery, the moral issues of President Clinton caused me to leave the Democratic Party. I am a staunch Republican and conservative.
I find it ironic that the dems today are the ones guilty of all they accuse the Republicans of doing. It is the Republicans that want to return to those values and ideals that made our nation so great. Even at my age, I still have opportunities I would never have in other democratic countries. I am still in control of my life and continue to thrive without the social safety net. With no safety net, you have a greater incentive to succeed. The self-worth you earn from being in control of your life is priceless. I still make mistakes but I am also responsible for dealing with them without others having to bail me out. I deal with the mistakes head on.
This caused me to think that out of all the people I know, and I know quite a few, in terms of classic attractiveness, I cannot think of any Democrat people that I would consider above average. The exception is some young people, but young people are always idealistic and tend to migrate more conservative after getting their paycheck taxed and getting married and having children.
This makes me wonder if leftism is the drift of people that feel some deficit in being attractive or appealing, and that makes them malcontented and resentful of others and the Democrat party feels more like home to them as it is filled with people the same.
Clearly almost every trans person I can think of would be considered below average attractive in their biological gender skin. And I don't know any trans people that are registered Republicans.
In this age of social media where we are bombarded with images of hyper-attractive people, it seems that maybe Democrats have filtered to be a collection of people feeling inadequate in attractiveness relative to the population, and this also causes them to create art that celebrates ugly as the new higher status.
My wife introduced me to Greg Gutfeld. We watch him every morning. Several months ago we both realized that the conservative women that appear on his show spend time taking care of themselves and are more attractive than the average progressive liberal. They are also strong, not the wimps under the control of the men in their lives. While they are telling their husbands, boyfriends, or whoever else is in their lives how to vote, nobody is telling them how to vote contrary to the popular belief of libs.
The conservative women are truly independent and making their own decisions.
Well said and so true. I would also add two things. First, when everything is ugly, nothing is better so everyone and everything is equal. Second, the left has always striven to destroy everything around it so it can be replaced with the communist utopia they keep promising. In the meantime, DEI is meant to use incompetence to hide their sabotage/destruction.
Your comment about mental illness and liberals not liking it when other people are happy and having fun hit home.
Until my mid-30s I was angry at the world. I had suffered tremendous abuse growing up and thought that the majority of people do not understand what real suffering is. It was unfair that I suffered greatly and many others did not and have an easy life. I was wishing bad things would happen to others so they can have their lives destroyed.
I had been under psychiatric care for a few years when the film, "As Good as it Gets" was released. The following statement by Melvin Udall in the film summed it up perfectly.
Melvin Udall: "It's not true. Some of us have great stories, pretty stories that take place at lakes with boats and friends and noodle salad. Just no one in this car. But a lot of people, that's their story. Good times, noodle salad. What makes it so hard is not that you had it bad, but that you're that pissed that so many others had it good."
That summed up my feelings perfectly, I hated that others had it good. I watched this movie several times during the period of my life when I was having regular panic attacks. I found it to be calming. At times, I just played it for background noise to remain calm so I could function at some level rather than doing nothing and wishing I were dead.
The panic attacks started early in my recovery from my mental breakdown. My psychiatrist said the cause of the attacks is my body trying to maintain homeostasis. I had lived for so long with abusive drama that after it ended, I would do things to keep the chaos in my life because for me, that was feeling normal. The problem, that path was causing me to self-destruct.
I started my care with an anti-depressant. I felt the depression lift for a few hours after the first dose. I was reluctant to try an antidepressant due to all the bad press surrounding their use but I was at the point where I was at rock bottom and had no clue what to do. The third day, I called my psychiatrist and asked if I could increase the dose. (I was on the lowest dose). In the afternoon, I felt the depression returning and I hated that. Hye said yes and wrote a prescription. He had provided me a 10 day supply of the lowest dose from samples he had in the office. So, I took a pill in the morning and at 4 pm. It gave me the energy I needed to do things. At that point, my wife and I knew I would not be able to work for a few years. She already had a job as a high school science teacher. Our son was recently born, so I was the stay at home dad and took care of the housework. It gave me a purpose in life and allowed me to develop a routine which I needed and time to do the hard work of improving myself. My psychiatric appointments were in the afternoon, after she returned from work.
The panic attacks started shortly thereafter and I was certain it meant I could never get better. Once my psychiatrist explained the why of the panic attacks, I realized I had made the first steps to recovery and worked on ways to manage them knowing that eventually they would lessen and eventually stop. It took two years for the panic attacks to lessen to anxiety attacks and a few more years for those to mostly stop. I still have an occasional panic or anxiety attack about once a year. They are not debilitating because I have learned to not focus on them and instead go on doing what I need to do.
I eventually became a high school science teacher. It was not my first choice but it was the fastest path to employment. It is very stressful, but I still saw my psychiatrist once a month so I could learn of ways to manage it. It turned out to be a great job for me, I started having debilitating migraines few years after my breakdown. At that time there were not many meds available that effectively controlled them. When I entered the classroom, I had a responsibility that was bigger than me, so I would focus on my job and soon forget about my migraine. The meds available would reduce their intensity to a level that was tolerable. If I could get the pain to drop from 9 to 6 or 7, I was good as long as I kept busy.
Fortunately today, the underlying cause for the migraines has been determined and the two newest drugs developed using gene technology lets me live practically migraine free.
Since I started on the path of recovery over 30 years ago, I now have a positive outlook on life. I find value in being a husband, dad, and now granddad. I have been greatly helped in my recovery through Christianity. God keeps me grounded and focused on the things I need to do and the things I need to stay away from. At 64, I am still improving every day.
During my recovery, the moral issues of President Clinton caused me to leave the Democratic Party. I am a staunch Republican and conservative.
I find it ironic that the dems today are the ones guilty of all they accuse the Republicans of doing. It is the Republicans that want to return to those values and ideals that made our nation so great. Even at my age, I still have opportunities I would never have in other democratic countries. I am still in control of my life and continue to thrive without the social safety net. With no safety net, you have a greater incentive to succeed. The self-worth you earn from being in control of your life is priceless. I still make mistakes but I am also responsible for dealing with them without others having to bail me out. I deal with the mistakes head on.
This caused me to think that out of all the people I know, and I know quite a few, in terms of classic attractiveness, I cannot think of any Democrat people that I would consider above average. The exception is some young people, but young people are always idealistic and tend to migrate more conservative after getting their paycheck taxed and getting married and having children.
This makes me wonder if leftism is the drift of people that feel some deficit in being attractive or appealing, and that makes them malcontented and resentful of others and the Democrat party feels more like home to them as it is filled with people the same.
Clearly almost every trans person I can think of would be considered below average attractive in their biological gender skin. And I don't know any trans people that are registered Republicans.
In this age of social media where we are bombarded with images of hyper-attractive people, it seems that maybe Democrats have filtered to be a collection of people feeling inadequate in attractiveness relative to the population, and this also causes them to create art that celebrates ugly as the new higher status.
My wife introduced me to Greg Gutfeld. We watch him every morning. Several months ago we both realized that the conservative women that appear on his show spend time taking care of themselves and are more attractive than the average progressive liberal. They are also strong, not the wimps under the control of the men in their lives. While they are telling their husbands, boyfriends, or whoever else is in their lives how to vote, nobody is telling them how to vote contrary to the popular belief of libs.
The conservative women are truly independent and making their own decisions.
Well said and so true. I would also add two things. First, when everything is ugly, nothing is better so everyone and everything is equal. Second, the left has always striven to destroy everything around it so it can be replaced with the communist utopia they keep promising. In the meantime, DEI is meant to use incompetence to hide their sabotage/destruction.